Tuesday, November 10, 2015

I Want It All ~ Now



I want a sparkling, clean house.

I want a happy, healthy baby.

I want my kids to be self-sufficient and confident.

I want to be inspired, and I want to write and write and write.

I want to take gorgeous pictures of the world and the seasons. I want to travel the globe in pursuit of the awesome grandeur this world has to offer.

I want to live in an awesome place: inspired, charged with life, liveliness oozing from every corner.

I feel all of these things drifting in and out of my life.

I feel a tug, and I know- I want it all now.

But something gets in the way.

Sin.

Depression.

Hopelessness.

Screaming babies.

Accidents, spills, sticky spots on the floor, and nasty mirrors that need to be cleaned. Mountains of laundry. Fights with my husband and squabbles between my children.

Will I get it all, now?

I have moments of peace and joy.  Holding my baby and seeing her smile. Stealing away for a cup of frothy coffee on a Sunday afternoon. Crunching the fall leaves outside and picking up sticks with my toddlers on the lawn.

In the moments in between, I boldly abandon bitterness. I strongly refuse the temptation to be catty. I toss aside the feeling of despair.

Because I know how those moments get wasted so fast. I know I’d rather keep them calm and tame.

So even though I want it all- now- I instead look for pockets of joy and moments of wild abandon…

where bitterness has no place.Waltzing In Beauty

adding my link to Tuesday Talk @ Waltzing in Beauty

4 comments:

Amy @ Motherhood and Miscellany said...

Yes! I try to do this too, to be joyful in the moments I have, even if my house is messy and my kids aren't getting their schoolwork done promptly and the laundry sits in a heap, taunting me :) This is great!

Iris Hanlin - The Starving Inspired said...

I love this, Tacy!

The Starving Inspired

Dr Mom said...

Beautiful sentiment shared by many. Thanks!

Sterling Jaquith said...

"So even though I want it all- now- I instead look for pockets of joy and moments of wild abandon… where bitterness has no place." Amen sister! Whew, life with littles is hard. It can feel like a stormy day but it's true, there are moments of joy where the sunshine of my children pokes through and brings me great joy. Thanks for sharing!